Unpopular Opinion: if you don’t want to include bisexuals, pansexuals, asexuals and trans people in Pride Month then you’re an ass and consider yourself uninvited
Happy Pride Month! In lieu of this June, I wish to share something personal that I previously struggled to do. (tw: homophobia/acephobia)
Mutuals and people who read my blog closely may know that I love to joke around instead, to just have a bit of fun! I wish that whoever that sees my work can smile or laugh a bit, I tend to keep things casual, but something just clicked in me today to make…well, this post.
I am asexual, I’ve known that since 14, I’m 18 now and it has been always so difficult to publically admit. I grew up in a conservative Christian family and I went to a conservative Christian school, I have conservative Christian friends and the push on religion is so great, sometimes I found myself thinking that I’m sick for relating to being asexual.
For a short period of time, I actively admitted in front of friends of my asexuality and I was, well, unsurprisingly laughed at. I still feel stupid for even attempting to try and fight against a school run by strict Christian views.
My closest friends still laugh at me for admitting so, they never stopped bringing that period of time up. I try to convince myself that they are just joking, but I know deep down it hurts.
My parents are homophobic, I once asked what will happen if I liked a girl, my mother said she’ll beat me until I’m crippled and then disown me. When I was 15 she dragged me away from a pride parade out of fear that they’ll poison my brain.
From my early teenage years, I’ve learned to be shameful of liking both genders romantically and also Ace.
That’s why I never felt like I belonged during pride month, I wished so hard to be a part of it when I was younger, but I might have to remain closeted for the rest of my life, because of parents, because of friends who creeps around your social media feed, because of my own fear of confrontation.
I once thought of myself to be diseased to be Ace, but I know now that I should’ve never been so, and I should’ve been more confident in myself and my identity. I wish in 2018 I can continue to build my courage and wits to someday, finally, embrace my asexuality even if it means I’m the only one that can see it.
I might be closeted because of my circumstances, but I am prideful, and I wish that whoever out there with the same situation will be prideful too.
Being closeted doesn’t mean you’re hiding it out of shame.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made, you are prideful.
Honestly my ideal lesbian pride flag would be the pink one and the orange one flowing into each other. Like the top half of the pink one and the bottom half of the orange half. Or the orange on top, just to shake things up and to subvert the idea that femininity should come first.
And the meanings (in no particular order, idk) should be: butch lesbians, femme lesbians, trans/nb lesbians, love, community, independence, serenity
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